into my crazy logic.

introduction to my crazy mind- I come from a long line of "DRAMA QUEENS" the hardest part for me has been realizing that one:I can be a drama queen, and two: just because I am one doesn't mean that I'm a bad person. I'm starting to understand that we are what we're taught, not to say that we all do not have our own souls and deep belief systems but saying that who we become, our "inner core" is formed and developed at a very young age, everything we do circles around this inner sentence we developed as a child. how we react to situations, who we choose to love, what path we choose for our careers, everything synchs with this bitch of an inner sentence that was wired from our childhood. That said I know that life experiences also mold our path. I grew up in a very conservative religious community, but my immediate family did not fit the "norm" that did not help with the development of my core belief. I never fit in at school made fun of often for not being Mormon, and kids know when your not like them and for some reason it's much easier to tease the kid that is " different" once I hit JR.HIGH, being different was suddenly very accepted, going against the grain was the way to be. maybe that's why I always try to be different and then feel disappointed when I'm not accepted. hmmmmmm there's so much more to say I will continue but must go and live in my crazy life and deal with the latest roadblocks. to be continued.......